Back in 2018 Killswitch Engage vocalist Jesse Leach had to undergo surgery to have polyps removed from his vocal cords. In a new interview with Vox&Hops podcast, hosted by Matt McGachy, Leach revealed that emergency surgery was more serious than he let on.
“We just played a sold-out show [in Los Angeles], and the crowd was incredible. And when your adrenaline’s going, you tend to push, and you’ve gotta be really careful, whether you’re a drummer or a vocalist, especially, that push can be really fucking dangerous. And I was pushing — I was feeling it. I was, like, ‘This is fucking awesome.’
“I got off stage, and I immediately went in the bathroom, and I was, like, ‘Something’s not right.’ I felt something off. And it wasn’t the usual, ‘Oh, I’m fatigued.’ And I hocked a loogie, and it was blood-red. And then as I’m in there, they’re, like, ‘Are you all right?’ I’m, like, ‘Yeah, yeah. I’m fine.’ And then I hocked a dark loogie — so it was internal bleeding. I was not okay.
“But I carried such guilt from quitting Killswitch in 2002 and then rejoining in 2012, the last thing in the world I wanted to do was cancel shows and be a burden. So I just rode it out and I didn’t talk for the next day, next two days, and the blood didn’t show up.
“We ended the tour, [then went on] the next tour. Every once in a while, this blood would just come up, and I’d pretend like I couldn’t see it, or I would just drink tequila and numb it, and be, like, ‘We’ll get through this. We’ll get through this.’ On my days off, I didn’t talk to anyone. I was just hyper, hyper resting, thinking that I could compensate.
“And then, yeah, it just got to the point where we were in the studio, and I was singing a line from one of the songs on ‘Atonement,’ and Adam [Dutkiewicz], our [guitarist and] producer, was, like, ‘Dude, you can hit this note. I’ve heard you hit this note thousands of times. You’re not hitting it. You’re flat, you’re sharp, you’re flat. We’ve been at this for a half hour. This is ridiculous. Something’s wrong.’
“And that led me to fly home from San Diego, cancel the rest of the [studio] sessions, and go to my doctor. I had been going to this [doctor] religiously for five or six years, and he’s, like, ‘You’ve gotta be careful.’ And he would put me on prednisone, and fix me up, and I would be good, and I would go off on another tour, and I’d damage it. So it was coming — I knew in the back of my mind it was coming. And he looked at me, and he was, like, ‘I’ve never seen you this bad. This is bad. I wanna put you on vocal rest.’
“So pretty much I was on vocal rest for about three months in total. And I couldn’t speak to anyone. When they [saw] that it wasn’t healing after a few weeks, they referred me to a surgeon. And he looked at my voice, and he was, like, ‘You voice looks to me like an 80-year-old’s neck skin when they crouch down. It’s bad.’ He was, like, ‘I can’t even guarantee you that you’re gonna be able to continue doing what you do. It’s that bad.’ He was, like, ‘We can do the surgery, but I can’t guarantee you’re gonna be able to do what you do anymore. And I recommend you don’t do what you do anymore, if you continue all this shit.’”
Luckily for Leach and Killswitch Engage fans, surgery was a huge success. Leach then went on to work with one of the greatest vocal coaches out there (especially for Metal) Melissa Cross. If you’re a vocalist looking for some amazing tips on how save your voice and perform better? Check out Zen Of Screaming!
You can view the full video interview below!